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Wishes

[Friday, December 08, 2006 ::Orange76 ]

Wishes

Christmas draws nearer each day. Somehow, every December, time flies as if tomorrow can't wait to happen.

It only shows that we, inspite of all our technical advances, can never control time.

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I was window shopping today and all I could see way things that I would like to own for myself. I saw this really nice shirt in Topshop and a nice pair of black shoes in GBX. SELFISH!!! That's what I thought to myself. That discouraged me to buy the stuff. Then I figured that I need to buy my family and friends their gifts first. Then pay the bills. Last would be me. Indeed, that is the order of things and it should stay that way.

I'm thankful that I have these blessings to get me through each day. Others aren't so lucky enough. Anyway, I'm still on track with my expenses. I'll pay my insurance tomorrow, whilst mobile phone and electricity will be on the 15th.

As for the party, I'll be wearing one of my old shirts that I hardly wore here in Manila.

As for the hair, I'll do something with it if there's any budget left.

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Music: Wishes
Artist: Nathan Morris
Album: Soundtrack From The Motion Picture Kazaam

Lyrics:

Here I am
On my own
It gets hard sometimes
When I'm travelling this empty world all alone
And I get tired
And oh, I get oh so weak
And I need for someone to come rescue me

To help me along
To catch when I miss
To show me where I ought to be
So I can be strong
And face all of this
That my life tries to discourage me with

With a little luck will I find you
And if I do
Is it you who'll make my dreams come true
Just a little bit of happiness
Is all that I wish
And I hope that you can grant me this

When I look
At my life
Oh, and where I've been
And I wonder if this story has a happy ending
Like they always do
But if my wish comes true
I just hope and pray I always can depend on you

To help me along
To catch when I miss
To show me where I ought to be
So I can be strong
And face all of this
That my life tries to discourage me with

With a little luck will I find you
And if I do
Is it you who'll make my dreams come true
Just a little bit of happiness
Is all that I wish
And I hope that you can grant me this

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[Thursday, December 07, 2006 ::melissa ]

"I admire you for having the courage to move outside the country and work. "
-Words from MJ that really struck me.

I never thought that I'd be leaving the country and be working abroad. I swore to myself that I'll be going to these countries for vacations. Hah! Life can be so friggin' ironic.

I found myself browsing through countless pictures taken when I was still with Macro. I never thought I'd miss the family so bad. Yes, I consider the old and new people I've met during my stay there as family. You love and sometimes hate them but still they will always be family.

My almost-four years of stay with the account was really something for the books.

As what Twin once said, I also had my best years with MM. =)

Miss you guys!

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[Thursday, May 04, 2006 ::B ]

hey guys! i have a new blog:

http://www.perfectlytarnished.blogspot.com

:)

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[Saturday, December 10, 2005 ::marko ]

Hi,

my new blog address is: http://grubbysneakers.blogspot.com/

Please change your link accordingly :)

Thanks,

Marko

formerly: http://markoboyd421.blogspot.com

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[Sunday, November 27, 2005 ::B ]

|| beyond kodak moments ||

i was reading Twin's blog and it made me contemplate on all of life's episodes i've had with my MM family.

i have said it before and i will say it again ---- i had the best years in MM. yes, i've cried a lot, but back then, i also found myself saying countless times, "this is the life -- IT IS wonderful".

all the joys and pains combined -- they were all worth it. looking back, i know that all of you will agree that we have all matured so much. SO. MUCH. even the littlest of things have contributed to making us stronger and undoubtedly wiser now.

i remember my first day in MM...tahimik pa ko nun. akala din nila tahimik nga ako (mali sila. maling mali sila!! :P). i never thought that Traning Day 1 would lead to a phenomenal 3-year journey.

it just gives me an overwhelming feeling when i think about everything we've overcome so far...

a lost love. a new found love. the death of a loved one. the birth of an angel. people leaving. people coming back. mourning. celebrating. loving. hating. loving and hating at the same time. forgiving. and still trying to forget. giving your all. being wisely selfish the next time. experiencing something honoring yet humbling. trusting. mistrusting. slowly learning to trust again. hurting yet still believing. moving on, and just taking baby steps. looking ahead but taking a glimpse or two of what's behind us.

we may not see each other everyday and not chat as often as we used to...but i know that we will always have each other. kahit saan pa tayo makarating. :)

from melrose place, i think we have evolved into being 7th heaven. :) anyone would kill to be a part of our family.

i miss you guys so much. senti mode nalang talaga...

i love love love you all! (((((hugs))))))

lagay tayong pictures for effect... :)

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global picnic 04. Macromedia team: supportive fans of Nene and the Virgins band

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easter eve drinking session. ayan puro tayo original macro peeps. walang newbies jan sa picture!

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kahit pala noon pa may photo sessions na ang movie group :)

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ang jeep. na tayo lang ang laman. :) sa la union nga pala yan. nagpunta tayong bayan kaya nag jeep (oo na oo na oo na explain nako.leche)

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almost a year na pala since wedding nina jules and jo. sinong susunod na ikakasal sa tropa? o wag kayo saken tumingin...utang na loob :P hi master and mike! ;)

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ang super bongggang party sa PICC. alala nyo yung Miss UN contest? haha! kulet eh. sinabi na kse carnival theme.

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may uniform pala tayo nun sa sykes noh?

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ano nga ba meron neto? ah wala lang. adik nga lang pala tayo sa pictures

o yan. tapos na ko umiyak...

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It's Been Awhile ...

[Friday, October 14, 2005 ::Master Lee® ]

Hello My dearest Kindred.

Its been awhile since I've seen any of you ... Life has been good for me and my Princess. I'm happy with the relationship I have established with my daughter. Life isn't as I have planned it to go but somehow everything has worked out for the best.

Recently, Mistress Ice was here at Mt. Olympus .. healing herself and finally picking up the pieces. I guess that's how life is.. we stumble and fall .. we get up and dust ourselves. SummerWells will be leaving soon and starting another chapter in her life .. I wish her well. WE all do. The PhoneMonkey, Prodigy Child, GraveYardZombie, UberClyde and I are working under one company. Soo far soo good.. I will see you soon .. my love to all of you.

Princess Ada can talk now .... She's growing up to be a beautiful and bright girl. You'll all be proud of her .. You'll see her soon .. :)

- MasterLee - finally found Nemo.

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Randomness

[Thursday, May 26, 2005 ::Orange76 ]

Just plain randomness

Mood: Pensive

Life carries on as usual. There are days when I feel that everything has completely gone wrong. Other times, its just plain sulking. Then I recall having seen a dead body laying on the pavement near the office at roughly 2am. This made realise that life we have is never really ours. Our time here is ticking. If its your time to go, you're gone.

I just find it hard to understand sometimes on how religion was used to cover up unexplainable things like the afterlife. What really happens to you in the afterlife? When I die, do I really go to heaven or hell? or do I just wander around and be a restless spirit like the rest of those roaming the earth. Sometimes, I find it unfair that our time here is so unpredictable. I guess that's makes life more interesting to live.

A few more weeks and I'm 29. Looking back at my life, I can never say it was completely bad. I can still smile and recall happy moments that help overshadow the gloomy times that I went through. Like I said in my blog, people take vacation for specific reasons. Others would take them to rest. Some for the sheer fun of it. Mine was purely for assessing my life. Like all journeys, when I came back, things began to unfold. I realised that I am tired and I need to move on or move up. I've loved my team to much that I have barely looked into working on my own plans. I still love my job. My team. But now, I feel that it is about time to hand over the key to a new blood. I'd love to study and travel all the time if it were financially possible. I need to explore other facets of my life that is waiting to be discovered. Like everyone else, I would like to prove myself and have my place in this world.

Odd enough, I miss being happy. I miss my dad. Yes, I miss him a lot. I denied myself of the period of grief to show my family that I had moved on. I have not moved on. I admit on never been the good son I could've been. The short moments I spent with them everytime we had lunch was bliss. It was the only time I felt bliss being in their their company. I still bear that pain of not being able to work things out with him. All I can do is be sorry.

I am also at the point in my life wherein I need to be happy about who and what I am. I know I am gay. I'm open about my sexuality to my friends and co-workers. Yet, I am depriving my family of the truth. I feel that I am living a lie. Kathy says that its never easy to come out. I just want to get it over with. I just don't know if I will ever be ready to face their reaction.

I'm single. Still single. I've gotten compliments saying that I'm okay looking. Is it that I've outgrown dating and would rather be trapped in a life of romance. Having a partner...walking together and traveling to different places...having candlelit dinner and spending a sensual evening at a posh cabin/suite making passionate love like there's no tomorrow. *reality check*

***I've got more work to do...I'm out...***

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